One of the biggest things I struggle with is doing. You see, I have all these ideas listed down for paintings and books that I want to do. And I spend my time dreaming about what that painting would look like, what this character would be like, the plot twists, etc. But I don’t try to make these dreams become a reality. I make excuses along the lines of:
“I’m not skilled enough to accomplish this idea yet.”
This thought is what I believe truly holds me back from doing these all ideas I have saved up. I fear that if I do these things now, I’ll regret it later on in life. Because, future me will look back at it and wish that I’d waited longer for a time when I could execute them better. These ideas matter to me, it’s the kind of meaningful content I want to create, and another fear of mine is that I won’t get any more of them in the future. And so, I don’t want to use of the good ones I have in my amateur phase.
Where does this leave me? Dreaming of the art I want to create, while doing art that doesn’t excite me. This is where I’m left until I find an in-between that suits me.