Right now, I have around four paintings laying around unfinished. The enthusiasm that I had when I first began painting has faded away. Don’t get me wrong I still love painting just as much as I did before. However, I have been hating what I’ve been painting lately. The four unfinished paintings I have, remain unfinished because of that feeling. During the process of each piece I’d find myself being hit by a wave of dissatisfaction. Dissatisfaction with the subject I’ve chosen, the colors I used, my technique, or maybe even everything about it.
To combat this “I hate my art” phase I tried to force myself to stick to one of those four paintings. I wouldn’t let myself move on to something else until I turned that piece into something that I at least could stand looking at. As good a plan as that sounded, I don’t have much self-discipline. So…
I let myself to start a new painting, and risk another unfinished one lying around. This time around I decided to change my location. A difference in location can give you a new sense of freedom or give off a new vibe. I was overdue for this change.
I also decided to change what I was painting. I’m an avid reader, and for this piece, I decided to combine my love of books with painting. This painting, if you haven’t noticed, is inspired by The Giving Tree.
The last thing I did was try a new technique. I’d gotten my hands on some acrylic glazing liquid, which I’ve been wanting to try out for a while now. Using this medium, added a sense of excitement that helped keep me motivated in this process.
Well, this is what I did to survive hating my art. I’m sure that this feeling will come up again some time in the future. When it does, I’ll do something along these lines again or something different… who knows. Honestly, I still don’t love this painting but what I’ve gotten out of it is an idea for my next one—one that I can see myself loving.